after a while you accumulate all this armor, you defend yourself from all sides. you have wounds that have scarred up nice and thick, and your joints begin to creak. you forget how to laugh, how to forget yourself.
but then there are those few friends, the ones that knew you when you were whole. that you knew when they were still all in one piece. the ones that you fought the night with, the ones you drink away much of your liver with. the ones you shared women with, the ones who stole you from a woman or two much too soon.
they are the ones that remind you who you were and who you could be. they point out your stupidities and teach you again how to laugh at yourself without feeling timid. they come back with the comebacks that make you choke away the dust of the day. you say to him, “even at seventy, drunk on miami beach, we’ll be saying the same shit, i swear.”