and there’s this thing between us, and even though i put it there i cannot seem to get rid of it but you want to ignore it and i can’t ignore it because i can’t seem to move it out of the way, out of my line of vision and i think every time you look at me it’s all that you see, this sorry state of a person, this weakling, this pathetic piece of shit, and i want to tell you i love you and i want to tell you i love you but all i hear is vomit coming out of my mouth, i hear myself saying instead, i’ve got all this vomit in my mouth, and i feel that’s all i am to the world these days, all this vomit in front of you, all this vomit you cannot stand.