in his company she has the neurotic fear of becoming normal again after the overwhelming feeling has passed again as she settles for him to fill this void in her when he cannot feel anything at all again and he stands there just stupid looking at her wishing he could figure her out figure what the fuck is she going on about again and she chews on her wrists and he just wraps his fingers around his own to protect them as if she was foaming at the mouth again and i wish i could just take a brick and smack him in the face with it over and over again until i break through the skin the muscle the bone and his eyes ogle me in the same stupid way he doesn’t know how to look at her to teach him how to fill the fucking void she’s left in me.