i love being alone, i’m either with someone who i enjoy being with or i am alone and all of sudden i started thinking to myself, i need to do something, i need to do something, one part of my mind was listening, the other part ws saying what the fuck is wrong with you, you’re coming off like a crack addict, and i started to panic that something was coming out from inside of me, and i said, who can i call, who can i call, and another part of me was watching that this was all very interesting, and i couldn’t find anyone to call, to find a way to be subdued and emotionally in control, but i freaked out over the phone to my sister and she lives in jersey and she said, just talk to me, i’m on my way, i’m on my way, honey, it’s just bigger than you.