I think I have the material for “a fiction of you”; I think I have enough. This is what I must do: I need to fragment the piece between the two narratives and summarize the theme/plot point of each. The first person narrative is reflections on life and mortality with references to a present that is constant and a nostalgic past. The third person narrative is plot driven where the character is moving forward in time with fleeting glimpses to a past that has shaped his current condition. What’s missing from both is a why: why is both the third and first persons so terminally alone despite the women who are seemingly part of their lives? What happened between the third person and his lover that he refuses to speak to her? Why has the first person chosen to write now with his lover sleeping? I think I know now, but I need to take it care, get a physical perspective and overview before I can begin.
I need to begin again.