stupidity but mine.

there are things i let go of everyday. trivial things. monumental things. i let go. my uncle, onset of cancer. my father, mystery stomach pains. family i’ve estranged myself from for decades at this point.
and then there are things i cannot. things i should know better and let go off, but i won’t. i can’t. call it pride, call it what it is: stupidity, but mine. mine.