Monthly Archives: April 2012

fitness

RECOVERY WEEK: FUN W/ KETTLEBELLS

Bought two 55lb kettlebells. Sure not the standard metric 24kg, but a little heavier.
Really hard, felt like my whole right shoulder assembly hates me. That’s the kind of pain it is, the kind that makes me refer to my shoulder as an assembly. Of course, i had to try them out, not only at the store, but home as well.
5×5 Floor Presses, L & R
5 Cleans, L & R
5 One Arm Swings, L & R
5 One Kettlebell Sumo Squats

internals

a/musing

ever closer to forty, the fury of forty, the resignation, the sputtering out, the desire to revisit, revamp, re-do, undo. impossible, all of it.
and this, voice, this disembodied embodiment of disappointment, of judgement: once youthful and wise, now smoke laden, tired and sore. done with itself even while speaking. out of the dark, something returns to nothing.
and yet, yet: doomsday scenarios that would tear the heart asunder; daydream vistas of compassion and love and the beauty of immortal children; fearful transgression into the very depth of a death only a smattering of decades away.
how do you do it?