completely out of control to be torn to shreds to be everyone and everything to everyone and ultimately be nothing escape into smashed pieces where i can say anything about this i want anything but this one moment breaking lit alight kicked up and flung her smile her laughter her hands her tears her last words a cackle of ghosts everywhere wound pulled open at the edges never to heal what he said what he did promises never kept promises he should never keep over and over lightening like the madness of asking too much and the horror of giving too little and he knows this he knows this of course he fucking knows.