you fucking fool, you cant say no can you? you cant muster the fucking courage and say no to this wretched fucking existence, to this fucking parking space of a life, to your cock in your hand jerking off uselessly into the mouths of rats

you cant say fucking no to the lice you pick out of your crotch and swallow. you cant say no to the whole world fingering your caked and dry asshole. you cant say no to the split and torn mess that is its pussy, clotted and thick and full of choked fetuses and you put your mouth right on it, and lapping it up like a stew, like the stray fucking mongrel you are

you cant say no to jamming one dirty needle into your balls and thrashing it around until the urine and blood and sperm blend into one and the pressure shoots a stream out your sack as you pull the needle out and slide it your into your nipple, not even a fucking twitch you sad sorry bastard, plunging it along, hitting the plunger, shitting yourself, hot and itchy down your leg, the needle even deeper, you cant fucking say no as it pierces the aorta and you shoot it all up, your cum, blood and piss, right up in there, right into the blood stream.

you realize, clumps of feces around your ankles, what you’ve completely forgotten in your little cocktail, what you’ve left out. you pull the needle out, bend down and scoop up a handful. of course, of course, you fucking cant say no, can you?