an agony to breathe
deliberately
that next breath
but never being enough
to welcome another.
from the unlikeliness
of relieving the pressure
from behind the eyes,
to be scream
(wiring of metal slivers)
sweaty hands
over the neck,
to push my tears
roughly beneath
the skull,
the cranium,
the lacking.
my lip dry and never
twisted round enough
to lessen this tongue.
wanting to hear
teeth cracking the one eye
that could
never find itself
abrasive enough
to tear itself
through the lashes
thrown upon scars
(like bent skewers)
to pierce,
the tension
to make itself
that one “I”.
never forget
looking
for attachment to
the confined self
to say, grinding against skin
within myself,
but quite uncomfortable
to say
“within this skin”
however,
to skin these eyes
this hand is
being swallowed.