i always said that i would
and i did, i did
i thought, always thinking
that you’d notice
i always told you i would
i would notice if you died
and i thought, i thought
that i would always think of you
but i had been dying
for a very long time now
a very long time thinking of dying time
of you, on my bed
while i was dying
and you didn’t notice
that i wasn’t there anymore
before you had thought to think of me
lighting a cigarette, you had to leave
you said, ‘look at the time’,
walking away from the bed post looking
like i was dead and i was
one last time thinking:
i’d notice if you were, i’d notice
i always said i would
i always said.