what you live for what you love for forever for one moment longer than all the rest for the pain to end to uncoil to uncoil yourself from yourself to be free of yourself and all that you see I see the edges become clearer I don’t think you can understand this edging this clearing that happens you can feel time move you suddenly feel time upon you on you moving away and back again another wave but a wave that has no ending
I told you it was the mortality in me the pressing of blood thick walls on your ears you can’t hear it can you the sound of this reality to hear this to see and hear what you are seeing and hearing two times two times sharper suddenly aware and awake in the middle of a nightmare and here we go the feeling that it’s all there every inch of it laid out before you and you’re not exactly seeing it isn’t the object of your attention but rather you are of it pressing itself on you at all angles at all edges
to come out of it to step away from it don’t let go of me love I don’t know what will become of me of us of me hold my head together I feel it fly apart at the thinking hush don’t talk about it please don’t say anything of our life ahead of us I don’t want to think of it in the dark not in the dark of this city in the middle of this nowhere where we all have lost sight of our senses of making sense of it