Once a day, every day, even if the mantra is the thing itself. Even if the telling is of the telling itself. It doesn’t matter, it’s the practice, the doing, because sometimes, something else will come from it, the repetition, the routine creates the groove, the groove creates the ease, the ease assuages the guilt of the telling. The guilt of it all. the guilt of taking the time out to take your yourself out of this time, to dictate of that time. Shameful rip form blanchot. When I am writing, I am not living, but if I am not living, what is of there to write.

On and on it goes, but it doesn’t matter, the practice matters. You cannot practice life, there are no rehearsals, not out takes, you are suddenly on stage without lines and so few cues. Merely suggestions accrued over time, of being under the spotlight when such and such a scene has played out before, and you improvise, you hesitate, someone else steals the spotlight but in the end it’s always been your show. You can however, practice this, the writing and the telling and the saying and the revision and the something that escaped notice and was truly trivial until you made it real and whole here, in this empty space.