Top 10 Evil Human Experiments
Published on March 14, 2008
[WARNING] This list contains descriptions and images of human experimentation which may cause offense to some readers.] Human experimentation and research ethics evolved over time. On occasion, the subjects of human experimentation have been prisoners, slaves, or even family members. In some notable cases, doctors have performed experiments on themselves when they have been unwilling to risk the lives of others. This is known as self-experimentation. This is a list of the 10 most evil and unethical experiments carried out on humans.
10. Stanford Prison Experiment
The Stanford prison experiment was a psychological study of human responses to captivity and its behavioral effects on both authorities and inmates in prison. The experiment was conducted in 1971 by a team of researchers led by psychologist Philip Zimbardo at Stanford University. Undergraduate volunteers played the roles of both guards and prisoners living in a mock prison in the basement of the Stanford psychology building.
Prisoners and guards rapidly adapted to their roles, stepping beyond the boundaries of what had been predicted and leading to dangerous and psychologically damaging situations. One-third of the guards were judged to have exhibited “genuine” sadistic tendencies, while many prisoners were emotionally traumatized and two had to be removed from the experiment early. Finally, Zimbardo, alarmed at the increasingly abusive anti-social behavior from his subjects, terminated the entire experiment early.
9. The Monster Study
The Monster Study was a stuttering experiment on 22 orphan children in Davenport, Iowa, in 1939 conducted by Wendell Johnson at the University of Iowa. Johnson chose one of his graduate students, Mary Tudor, to conduct the experiment and he supervised her research. After placing the children in control and experimental groups, Tudor gave positive speech therapy to half of the children, praising the fluency of their speech, and negative speech therapy to the other half, belittling the children for every speech imperfection and telling them they were stutterers. Many of the normal speaking orphan children who received negative therapy in the experiment suffered negative psychological effects and some retained speech problems during the course of their life. Dubbed “The Monster Study” by some of Johnson’s peers who were horrified that he would experiment on orphan children to prove a theory, the experiment was kept hidden for fear Johnson’s reputation would be tarnished in the wake of human experiments conducted by the Nazis during World War II. The University of Iowa publicly apologized for the Monster Study in 2001.
8. Project 4.1
Project 4.1 was the designation for a medical study conducted by the United States of those residents of the Marshall Islands exposed to radioactive fallout from the March 1, 1954 Castle Bravo nuclear test at Bikini Atoll, which had an unexpectedly large yield. For the first decade after the test, the effects were ambiguous and statistically difficult to correlate to radiation exposure: miscarriages and stillbirths among exposed Rongelap women doubled in the first five years after the accident, but then returned to normal; some developmental difficulties and impaired growth appeared in children, but in no clear-cut pattern. In the decades that followed, though, the effects were undeniable. Children began to suffer disproportionately from thyroid cancer (due to exposure to radioiodines), and almost a third of those exposed developed neoplasms by 1974.
As a Department of Energy Committee writing on the human radiation experiments wrote, “It appears to have been almost immediately apparent to the AEC and the Joint Task Force running the Castle series that research on radiation effects could be done in conjunction with the medical treatment of the exposed populations.” The DOE report also concluded that “The dual purpose of what is now a DOE medical program has led to a view by the Marshallese that they were being used as ‘guinea pigs’ in a ‘radiation experiment.'”
7. Project MKULTRA
Project MKULTRA, or MK-ULTRA, was the code name for a CIA mind-control research program, run by the Office of Scientific Intelligence, that began in the early 1950s and continued at least through the late 1960s. There is much published evidence that the project involved the surreptitious use of many types of drugs, as well as other methodologies, to manipulate individual mental states and to alter brain function.
Experiments included administering LSD to CIA employees, military personnel, doctors, other government agents, prostitutes, mentally ill patients, and members of the general public in order to study their reactions. LSD and other drugs were usually administered without the subject’s knowledge and informed consent, a violation of the Nuremberg Code that the U.S. agreed to follow after WWII.
Efforts to “recruit” subjects were often illegal, even discounting the fact that drugs were being administered (though actual use of LSD, for example, was legal in the United States until October 6, 1966). In Operation Midnight Climax, the CIA set up several brothels to obtain a selection of men who would be too embarrassed to talk about the events. The men were dosed with LSD, and the brothels were equipped with one-way mirrors and the “sessions” were filmed for later viewing and study.
In 1973, CIA Director Richard Helms ordered all MKULTRA files destroyed. Pursuant to this order, most CIA documents regarding the project were destroyed, making a full investigation of MKULTRA virtually impossible.
6. The Aversion Project
South Africa’s apartheid army forced white lesbian and gay soldiers to undergo ‘sex-change’ operations in the 1970’s and the 1980’s, and submitted many to chemical castration, electric shock, and other unethical medical experiments. Although the exact number is not known, former apartheid army surgeons estimate that as many as 900 forced ‘sexual reassignment’ operations may have been performed between 1971 and 1989 at military hospitals, as part of a top-secret program to root out homosexuality from the service.
Army psychiatrists aided by chaplains aggressively ferreted out suspected homosexuals from the armed forces, sending them discretely to military psychiatric units, chiefly ward 22 of 1 Military Hospital at Voortrekkerhoogte, near Pretoria. Those who could not be ‘cured’ with drugs, aversion shock therapy, hormone treatment, and other radical ‘psychiatric’ means were chemically castrated or given sex-change operations.
Although several cases of lesbian soldiers abused have been documented so far—including one botched sex-change operation—most of the victims appear to have been young, 16 to 24-year-old white males drafted into the apartheid army.
Dr. Aubrey Levin (the head of the study) is now Clinical Professor in the Department of Psychiatry (Forensic Division) at the University of Calgary’s Medical School. He is also in private practice, as a member in good standing of the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Alberta.
5. North Korean Experimentation
There have been many reports of North Korean human experimentation. These reports show human rights abuses similar to those of Nazi and Japanese human experimentation in World War II. These allegations of human rights abuses are denied by the North Korean government, who claim that all prisoners in North Korea are humanely treated.
One former North Korean woman prisoner tells how 50 healthy women prisoners were selected and given poisoned cabbage leaves, which all the women had to eat despite cries of distress from those who had already eaten. All 50 were dead after 20 minutes of vomiting blood and anal bleeding. Refusing to eat would have meant reprisals against them and their families.
Kwon Hyok, a former prison Head of Security at Camp 22, described laboratories equipped respectively for poison gas, suffocation gas and blood experiments, in which 3 or 4 people, normally a family, are the experimental subjects. After undergoing medical checks, the chambers are sealed and poison is injected through a tube, while “scientists” observe from above through glass. Kwon Hyok claims to have watched one family of 2 parents, a son and a daughter die from suffocating gas, with the parents trying to save the children using mouth-to-mouth resuscitation for as long as they had the strength.
4. Poison laboratory of the Soviets
The Poison laboratory of the Soviet secret services, also known as Laboratory 1, Laboratory 12 and “The Chamber”, was a covert poison research and development facility of the Soviet secret police agencies. The Soviets tested a number of deadly poisons on prisoners from the Gulag (“enemies of the people”), including mustard gas, ricin, digitoxin and many others. The goal of the experiments was to find a tasteless, odorless chemical that could not be detected post mortem. Candidate poisons were given to the victims, with a meal or drink, as “medication”.
Finally, a preparation with the desired properties called C-2 was developed. According to witness testimonies, the victim changed physically, became shorter, weakened quickly, became calm and silent and died within fifteen minutes. Mairanovsky brought to the laboratory people of varied physical condition and ages in order to have a more complete picture about the action of each poison.
In addition to human experimentation, Mairanovsky personally executed people with poisons, under the supervision of Pavel Sudoplatov.
3. The Tuskegee Syphilis Study
The Tuskegee Study of Untreated Syphilis in the Negro Male was a clinical study, conducted between 1932 and 1972 in Tuskegee, Alabama, in which 399 (plus 201 control group without syphilis) poor — and mostly illiterate — African American sharecroppers were denied treatment for Syphilis.
This study became notorious because it was conducted without due care to its subjects, and led to major changes in how patients are protected in clinical studies. Individuals enrolled in the Tuskegee Syphilis Study did not give informed consent and were not informed of their diagnosis; instead they were told they had “bad blood” and could receive free medical treatment, rides to the clinic, meals and burial insurance in case of death in return for participating. In 1932, when the study started, standard treatments for syphilis were toxic, dangerous, and of questionable effectiveness. Part of the original goal of the study was to determine if patients were better off not being treated with these toxic remedies. For many participants, treatment was intentionally denied. Many patients were lied to and given placebo treatments—in order to observe the fatal progression of the disease.
By the end of the study, only 74 of the test subjects were still alive. Twenty-eight of the men had died directly of syphilis, 100 were dead of related complications, 40 of their wives had been infected, and 19 of their children had been born with congenital syphilis.
2. Unit 731
Unit 731 was a covert biological and chemical warfare research and development unit of the Imperial Japanese Army that undertook lethal human experimentation during the Second Sino-Japanese War (1937–1945) and World War II. It was responsible for some of the most notorious war crimes carried out by Japanese personnel.
Some of the numerous atrocities committed by the commander Shiro Ishii and others under his command in Unit 731 include: vivisection of living people (including pregnant women who were impregnated by the doctors), prisoners had limbs amputated and reattached to other parts of their body, some prisoners had parts of their bodies frozen and thawed to study the resulting untreated gangrene. Humans were also used as living test cases for grenades and flame throwers. Prisoners were injected with strains of diseases, disguised as vaccinations, to study their effects. To study the effects of untreated venereal diseases, male and female prisoners were deliberately infected with syphilis and gonorrhea via rape, then studied. A complete list of these horrors can be found here.
Having been granted immunity by the American Occupation Authorities at the end of the war, Ishii never spent any time in jail for his crimes and died at the age of 67 of throat cancer.
1. Nazi Experiments
Nazi human experimentation was medical experimentation on large numbers of people by the German Nazi regime in its concentration camps during World War II. At Auschwitz, under the direction of Dr. Eduard Wirths, selected inmates were subjected to various experiments which were supposedly designed to help German military personnel in combat situations, to aid in the recovery of military personnel that had been injured, and to advance the racial ideology backed by the Third Reich.
Experiments on twin children in concentration camps were created to show the similarities and differences in the genetics and eugenics of twins, as well as to see if the human body can be unnaturally manipulated. The central leader of the experiments was Dr. Josef Mengele, who performed experiments on over 1,500 sets of imprisoned twins, of which fewer than 200 individuals survived the studies. Dr. Mengele organized the testing of genetics in twins. The twins were arranged by age and sex and kept in barracks in between the test, which ranged from the injection of different chemicals into the eyes of the twins to see if it would change their colors to literally sewing the twins together in hopes of creating conjoined twins.
In 1942 the Luftwaffe conducted experiments to learn how to treat hypothermia. One study forced subjects to endure a tank of ice water for up to three hours (see image above). Another study placed prisoners naked in the open for several hours with temperatures below freezing. The experimenters assessed different ways of rewarming survivors.
From about July 1942 to about September 1943, experiments to investigate the effectiveness of sulfonamide, a synthetic antimicrobial agent, were conducted at Ravensbrück. Wounds inflicted on the subjects were infected with bacteria such as Streptococcus, gas gangrene, and tetanus. Circulation of blood was interrupted by tying off blood vessels at both ends of the wound to create a condition similar to that of a battlefield wound. Infection was aggravated by forcing wood shavings and ground glass into the wounds. The infection was treated with sulfonamide and other drugs to determine their effectiveness.
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Nathan Carlson has barely slept
Horrifying coincidence in beheading
By ANDREW HANON
(taken from the edmunton sun)
Nathan Carlson has barely slept since July 30.
“Ever since it happened, I haven’t been able to get it out of my head,” Carlson says haltingly. “I just don’t know what to think of it, quite frankly.”
The Edmonton ethno-historian is one of the world’s leading experts on Windigo phenomenon, and the recent horrific beheading and alleged cannibalism on a Greyhound bus bound for Winnipeg from Edmonton rocked him to his very core.
As the grisly details of Tim McLean’s last moments on Earth came to light in the following days, Carlson sank deeper and deeper into a fog of horror and revulsion.
Vince Weiguang Li is accused of abruptly attacking McLean, who by all accounts he didn’t even know — while McLean slept on the bus.
Up until a few days before the killing, Li held a part- time job delivering newspapers in Edmonton. He was well thought-of by his boss and considered a nice guy, if a bit quiet and shy.
On July 20 — just 10 days before the killing — Li delivered copies of the Sun that contained an extensive interview with Carlson about his research into the Windigo, a terrifying creature in native mythology that has a ravenous appetite for human flesh. It could take possession of people and turn them into cannibalistic monsters.
The two-page feature talked about how, in the late 1800s and into the 20th century, Windigo “encounters” haunted communities across northern Alberta and resulted in dozens of gruesome deaths.
In one case, a Cree trapper named Swift Runner was hanged after admitting to killing and eating his wife, children, brother and mother in the woods northeast of Edmonton in the winter of 1878-79.
Prior to being charged with murder, he had suffered screaming fits and nightmares, which he attributed to being possessed by a Windigo.
In several other cases, people banded together and killed individuals they feared were possessed by a Windigo. Often, they would decapitate the corpse and bury the head separate from the body in order to keep it from rising from the dead.
Carlson documented several cases in northern Alberta communities where people believing they were “turning Windigo” would go into convulsions, make terrifying animal sounds and beg their captors to kill them before they started eating people.
In last month’s bus case, Li allegedly butchered McLean’s body, brandishing the victim’s severed head at the men who trapped him on the bus until police could arrive.
He was later accused of eating McLean’s flesh.
When he appeared in a Portage La Prairie courthouse on charges of second-degree murder, the only words Li reportedly uttered were pleas for someone to kill him.
A lot of his reported behaviour eerily mirrors the Windigo cases recounted in the newspaper feature that Li helped deliver to Edmonton homes just days before McLean was killed, one of the most gruesome slayings in modern Canadian history.
Several media reports called McLean’s killing unprecedented – an unspeakable, random attack the likes of which has never been seen in Canada.
But Carlson knows better.
“There are just too many parallels,” he says.
“I can’t say there’s definite connection, but there are just too many coincidences.
“It’s beyond eerie.”
skin cell
always always behind behind behind, i barely keep up. disconnected and disenfranchised, horrible poker nights and completely lost to my children. she says to me, i cannot keep you prisoner in your own home. doesn’t she see it’s the skin that’s my prison, my very own skin?
I have to stay on this bus forever
Canada bus beheading suspect says ‘please kill me’
By ROB GILLIES – 1 day ago
TORONTO (AP) — A man accused of stabbing and beheading another passenger on a Greyhound bus in Canada pleaded Tuesday in court for someone to “please kill me,” and was ordered to undergo a psychiatric evaluation.
Prosecutor Joyce Dalmyn, who argued for the evaluation, revealed new details about the attack Wednesday night. She said Vince Weiguang Li had a plastic bag containing his victim’s ear, nose and part of a mouth in his pocket when officers arrested him. The only response officers received from him was: “‘I have to stay on the bus forever,'” Dalmyn said.
In an interview with police after his arrest, Li declined to speak for the most part, said Dalmyn. On four occasions, however, he did indicate in a low voice that he is guilty, she said.
Li, who immigrated to Canada from China in 2004, is charged with second-degree murder in the slaying of 22-year-old carnival worker Tim McLean — an attack which witnesses aboard the bus said appeared to be unprovoked. He has yet to enter a plea.
Li was scheduled to appear Tuesday to determine whether he should undergo psychiatric testing, but the judge in Portage La Prairie adjourned the hearing for a short recess to allow a legal aid attorney to confer with him.
Since his arrest, Li has declined to speak to prosecutors and his court-appointed attorney.
When asked again by the judge after the recess if he wanted a lawyer, Li shook his head and then quietly said “please kill me.”
Dalmyn said many heard the plea.
“There were some people in the courtroom that were taken aback by it,” Dalmyn told The Associated Press. “Those were the only words I heard him utter in the courtroom.”
Dalmyn said Li appeared to understand what the judge was asking him.
“He shook his head in response to questions from the judge. Some shakes of his appeared to be in the affirmative. Some of them appeared to be in the negative,” Dalmyn said.
He is due back in court Sept. 8.
Thirty-seven passengers were aboard the Greyhound from Edmonton, Alberta, to Winnipeg, Manitoba, as it traveled at night along a desolate stretch of the TransCanada Highway about 12 miles from Portage La Prairie. Some were napping and others watching the movie “The Legend of Zorro” on bus television screens when Li attacked McLean, allegedly stabbing him dozens of times.
As horrified passengers fled the bus, Li severed McLean’s head, displaying it to some of the passengers outside the bus, witnesses said.
A police officer at the scene reported seeing the attacker hacking off pieces of the victim’s body and eating them, according to a police tape leaked on the Internet.
A church pastor, Tom Castor, who helped hire Li soon after he immigrated in 2004 with his wife, Anna, said the man never showed any sign of anger or emotional problems when he worked there as a custodian. Church officials said they vetted Li by contacting references listed on his application and running a criminal record check.
More than 105,000 people have joined an online memorial group for McLean.
Accused chatted with victim’s co-worker
Prior to decapitation, Vince Li sat with victim’s colleague
Mike McIntyre, Winnipeg Free Press, Tuesday, August 05, 2008
WINNIPEG – The seeds for Tim McLean’s brutal murder on board a Greyhound bus last week may have been planted when the man accused of his murder, Vince Li, spent nearly an hour chatting up the victim’s co-worker during their ride through western Manitoba, the Winnipeg Free Press has learned.
Li, 40, took a seat at the front of the bus beside a woman named Stacy after getting on board in Brandon. The pair chatted and were even seen smoking together during a rest stop.
As the bus resumed its ill-fated journey towards Winnipeg, Li suddenly moved to the back of the bus and sat beside McLean, who was listening to his headphones and apparently asleep.
Moments later, McLean was being repeatedly stabbed until he was decapitated. Horrified passengers fled the bus but managed to lock the killer inside the bus.
McLean’s family and friends don’t believe Li’s change-of-seating was a coincidence. And they question why he was charged with second-degree murder and not first-degree murder, which indicates planning and premeditation.
“I have this unbelievably strong feeling that him sitting beside Stacy had something to do with this,” McLean’s former girlfriend, Alexandra Storey, told the Free Press in an exclusive interview Monday.
Tim and Stacy had become friends while working together at various western Canadian fairs through North American Midway Entertainment.
They were travelling together to Winnipeg – although seated separately in different areas of the bus – and had planned to meet up with a mutual friend in the city before all heading to British Columbia.
McLean’s loved ones now desperately want to speak with Stacy – her last name is not known to them – to find out more about her dealings with Li on the bus.
They only know that she quickly returned to B.C. after McLean’s killing, and presumably after an interview with police.
A call to North American Midway Entertainment seeking information about the woman wasn’t returned on Monday.
Storey is also haunted by a series of text messages McLean sent to her as he made his way through Manitoba. Her ex-boyfriend – to whom she remained very close – mentioned that some people were doing ecstasy on the bus.
Some medical experts say the combination of a powerful stimulant drug such as ecstasy, combined with pre-existing mental health conditions, could trigger a violent episode.
Storey isn’t buying it.
“Even if he was doing drugs, it wouldn’t make him do something like that. There’s no excuse,” she said.
A Winnipeg family that had extensive dealings with Li during his two years spent living in the city told the Free Press on Saturday they believe he was suffering from paranoid schizophrenia. However, he refused to go see a doctor to be diagnosed or prescribed any medication, despite a strong push from the family and members of a local church where he attended and briefly worked as a janitor.
Li’s erratic behaviour included making statements about always being watched and taking sudden, unexplained bus trips to various locales including The Pas and Toronto. He eventually left his wife, Anna, in 2006 and moved to Edmonton, where he began delivering newspapers and briefly worked at McDonald’s. Anna recently left Winnipeg to join him in Alberta.
Li last delivered newspapers on July 28, according to his boss in Edmonton, Vincent Augert. On Tuesday, he “fell off the face of the earth,” Augert said, which was unlike Li. Augert phoned him and a woman who identified herself as Li’s wife called back, saying Li’s disappearance wasn’t planned.
“She said to me, ‘I don’t know where he is, he had to leave town, it was an emergency,'” Augert said. Li had told Augert three weeks ago that he had plans to go to Winnipeg for a job interview.
It’s not officially known yet why Li was on the Greyhound headed for Winnipeg Wednesday. Li has no prior criminal record in Canada, according to RCMP.
Justice sources say his background in China will be examined closely as the case proceeds through the courts.
Storey told the Free Press they are disgusted by media reports that they believe paint the accused Li in a sympathetic light, regardless of any medical issues he may have.
“Everyone is talking about his background, how he went to church, was a good guy . . . He never gave Tim a chance,” she said.
“Mental illness or not, you don’t do that to another human being.”
They also want police to closely examine Li’s time in Canada for fear there could be other violent incidents that have yet to be uncovered.
McLean’s family is currently in the planning stages for his funeral, which is expected to be a small, private affair despite the worldwide attention and condolences his killing has generated, she said.
poker star
finally hit the hard rock casino at tampa. sign up list for 1-2NLHE for a little less than an hour. smoke filled slot floor but the poker room was smoke less. got sat at a table that had 3 lifers but i had only initially noticed the old man more or less opposite me.
first hand, had to bluff, just to get it out of my system. opened with QTs (hearts), old man called. flop comes out KJrag rainbow. he bet, i insta-reraised. he studied me, i studied the table, thinking, control your breathing, slow it down. after a good solid minute, he folds his hand and taps the table.
i don’t show it.
another hand, guy in his late forties with a wide brim straw hat (known from here on out as Panama Jack) who i had split a pot earlier with (straight with both of us holding Q9) min raises (going from 2 to 4, what the heck is that all about? i had seen him do it with pocket kings) and i was in the big blind. i had 23o but with 3 other limpers and being in the big blind, it was only 2 more to call, so why not.
flop comes KJ3, rainbow. awesome. i study it, then check (funny, i never looked at my cards again after the flop, which i don’t know if anyone else noticed). panama jack turns aggressive, betting close to the pot (~16), and i call. he nods his head. turn comes, it’s another three, flash of disgust across his face. he checks. i bet, he’s annoyed but calls. river comes and it’s a deuce.
i made a full house out of 32o, ain’t that something? and i’m fairly confident all he has is some sort of high king. i bet, he goes all in, i call. i turn over the boat and everyone goes “oooh” and “nice hand” and you can tell panama jack absolutely hates me.
so it went on like this, i wasn’t catching alot of good cards, caught a pair of 9s twice fairly close to each other: the first time someone flopped a pair of aces, the second time i flopped a set and was able to milk it.
another hand, fairly early, and the only time i got scolded for the way i played: button (this korean woman who was very nice) raised 6 pre-flop, small blind folded, me, big blind with K7s called. flop comes AK3 rainbow. i check, she bets out 8, i call. so, there’s a little over 30 in the pot. K peels off on the turn, i bet out 40. she blurts out, “why so much??? i know you go the king. why so much?? i know you got the king, why no slow play??”
and i really don’t know why i did that other than i was afraid of her catching that 2 outer on the river. but i guess she’s right, i could’ve made some more money on the hand instead of just taking it down right then and there.
last hand, against panama jack, he min raised again, i had pocket 3s on the button so i called as did 1 or 2 others. flop comes KJ3, same as last time. he bets, again, strong, previous callers folded and i re-raised. again that flash of disgust with a nod but he calls anyway. turn is a blank, he checks, i check. the river was a jack and i was fairly certain that he didn’t have a set of kings to make a full house with the jack, beating mine with the 3s.
he checks to me, knowing he’s beat. so i took a deep breath, looked at his stack, then looked at him.
“i’m going to put you all in. you gonna call?”
cultural accural
ride back home yesterday, old black man driving an older cadillac eldorado on the highway. not in the best of condition, faded red, some of the seams a bit pried apart. those things get what, 10-15 miles per gallon? just getting into the fours and seven dollars on the gallon predicated by decade’s end, how is this thing even on the road to begin with?
how does an object accrue value in a culture?
the stereotype: blacks and big old cadillacs. the man was well into his fifties, fairly fit, thin with the windows rolled down. the car, not well maintained, not necessarily a status symbol. not new and not made to look shiny. so something else, a keepsake. keepsake of what?
when that model was released, it had to be what, late sixties/early seventies, which puts the driver just being born, maybe pre-teen. he might have seen it, but never drove it. typical ownership of that car, up until the gas crisis of the mid-late seventies, maybe ten years. again, puts the driver anywhere from pre-teen to teens, if his father owned one.
and what did his father do that he would need a big ole cadillac to redeem him? what kind of work was available for blacks during that time? custodians, janitors, etc? would explain the caddy, the need to put your sweat into something big and bold and beautiful.
or did someone he admire own such a car? did his friend lend him the car for a date?
on and on it went like this, until the potato was asleep and the banana too and even the wife passed out to the drone of my meanderings.
fate vs destiny
things matter or they don’t. things happen or they don’t.
the where and when might be a matter of fate,
but the how and why is a choice.
dressup
from albany power exchange, an information resource about BDSM:
1. Start by insisting that she is in good physical shape, her hair is well done and her eyebrows, nails, makeup and choice of jewelry are all of the highest level
2. Instruct her to wear no perfume of any kind and to desist from routine washing of her genitals to ensure that a good aroma starts to build up
3. To improve the smell of her pussy, fuck her regularly and leave copious amounts of cum inside her – two weeks of that regime should have her nicely ripe
4. Before dressing her, have her stand naked and wide-legged before you
5. Pull hard on her nipples and clamp them tightly either with nipple lassoes or small elastic bands. They should be painful but not extreme and should be tight enough to make the nipples swell up
6. Then bind her breasts tightly at the base to force them forwards and out. The ideal effect is to make the breasts swollen and very firm, jutting out directly forward from her ribcage
7. Briefly fuck her to provide extra cum in her pussy
8. Make her pull her pussy open and with a teaspoon, scoop out all fluids you can find and spread them liberally over her swollen breasts and coat the insides of her thighs too
9. Wet two fingers inside her, then probe her arse deeply. Smear her breasts with the extra goo you find in that way and repeat until there is a strong and unmistakable aroma rising from her
10. Take a narrow plug-harness and push a buttplug and dildo into her, strapping it tight around her. Use one that leaves her pussy flaps free
11. Attach clamps to her pussy lips and hang weights from them. I use some lead “paternoster” fishing weights that I have had for years on about 2 inches of line. If she is masochist enough and can stand the pain, you could try using real fish hooks pushed through the flesh but there are not many girls who can tolerate that
12. Dress her in a very short skirt – the base of the weights should line up with the hem of the skirt when she stands
13. Other items of dress will be to your taste, but I would certainly choose a top that does as little as possible to conceal her erect breasts and nipples
14. Then take her out to be admired
fragile things
eventually we are all meant to be broken
fall walking
the moment of suspended animation, the absolute clarity, pitch perfect silence & sound-there, right there, you can almost see it all in its entirety.
i had moments like this, walking home often times late at night, often times in the fall, the wind would whip and there was some sort of crackle.
everything became vivid, i was surrounded, immersed, engulfed, i can feel the snap of a leaf, the groove between two slabs of concrete in the sidewalk.
and it was wonderful and real, for once, i was aware, i was it, i was this, i was a part of this and i was nothing, all the details pressing in, pressing thru.
and i disappeared save for the seeing, the breathing, the hearing, the being, the moving about, panorama perspective without the vertigo just sheer fear.
where am i? where am i? where am i? i don’t see myself in any of this.