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Re: I should know better than to start this… (con't)

From: Al
Date: Mon, 10 Nov 2008 22:44:01
To: Manny
Subject: Re: I should know better than to start this
Very eloquent.
I guess I’m just irritated how the media seemed to gloss over a lot of different issues that came up during the campaign concerning B.O. while true or not, never made it’s way to the masses. No attention was paid to things like him saying in September on Meet The Press “My Muslim faith…I mean my Christian faith”. Seriously, have you ever slipped and said “My Hebrew faith”? Or how the LA Times had a tape of Obama socializing with Rashid Khalidi- it may mean nothing, but why refuse to show it?? McCain wasn’t my choice for the GOP nomination but he was a better alternative than this guy. Hell, I hate Hillary but I’d rather see her than this pair. A study showed that the majority of the stories regarding McCain were unfavorable while the majority of stories for Obama were favorable. It just seemed very lopsided towards one candidate.
All politicians are crooked, yes. And don’t think for 1 minute that The Chosen One will be any different. The government could care less about the people- all the more reason for them to stay out of running almost every facet of society (heath care, education etc).
It seems that the people were so anti-Bush that the were ready to elect any non-Republican. Which is understandable. I just think that too many of these people didn’t really look at both sides and their
policies. They heard “change” “Iraq is bad” and “McCain=Bush” and it was a done deal.

On that last bit, you are very much on the mark: historically, this country has done better economically with a dem prez and a repub congress. So having both branches of govt being dem is not a good thing, in my opinion.
As for the media, and I think I’ve already mentioned this, I find them totally gross: I find myself often screaming at the screen. In the end, they are a business like any other, and to keep things “entertaining” they try to create these sweeping dramas that completely over simplify the issues.
The nite that hillary was supposed to give her speech during the dnc, cnn spent the entire day talking abt the angry hillary supporters, the enraged hillary supporters: all this without fucking interviewing one, without putting on one face to match the coverage (which is what good journalism is supposed to do).
Then hillary spoke and after some commentary, they go in the crowd and find an “unconvinced” hillary supporter, who, guess what, was not only a woman but black too. See the potential for drama there? And this woman was going on and on about how obama had a lot of work left to earn her vote, she might not even vote, saying this with tears in her eyes. Then boom, straight to commercial. Did they return and interview a hillary supporter that would now support obama? No, of course not. That’s due diligence, that wouldve been good journalism but a horrible cliffhanger. Better to leave us wondering, leave us in suspense.
It’s disgusting.

expressed views on the election

Sometimes this world can be such an eloquent place but most of the time it’s atrocious: we bumble about. Like what the detective from haggis’ crash says, we have lost the way to reach out to one another and instead we grab, push and shove. And our incapacity doesn’t shock us, doesn’t force us to re-examine ourselves. Rather we blame one another, we gossip, we dig our nails into each other’s weaknesses, we tear the skin searching for bone. I find it so difficult at times to resist the urge to pretend, to be compliant; any step out of character welcomes derision, ridicule, dismissal. I hear the thoughts and opinions from my aunts and uncles about the presidential campaign, the expectations of obama’s presidency, the choice of palin for vp, the disappointment of losing hillary and I am shocked, disappointed and sometimes even surprised. These are not stupid people but they are capable of saying very stupid things. These are not the most open minded people, but they can say things that transcend the bigotry they have grown up with. One uncle said tonight, ok a black president was elected I don’t need to see these people celebrating about it in my face. Mind you, he lives in a very, very white town: black people are not partying on his lawn, he’s talking about the media coverage of harlem. Another uncle, who has very plainly and openly expressed rather racist views, says, I didn’t vote for obama but I’m glad he won I think he would be good for this country.They can surprise you even when you expect otherwise; even when they have disappointed you countless times before.

a fiction of you review

I think I have the material for “a fiction of you”; I think I have enough. This is what I must do: I need to fragment the piece between the two narratives and summarize the theme/plot point of each. The first person narrative is reflections on life and mortality with references to a present that is constant and a nostalgic past. The third person narrative is plot driven where the character is moving forward in time with fleeting glimpses to a past that has shaped his current condition. What’s missing from both is a why: why is both the third and first persons so terminally alone despite the women who are seemingly part of their lives? What happened between the third person and his lover that he refuses to speak to her? Why has the first person chosen to write now with his lover sleeping? I think I know now, but I need to take it care, get a physical perspective and overview before I can begin.
I need to begin again.

Re: I should know better than to start this…

From: Al
Date: Sat, 8 Nov 2008 21:42:56
To: manny
Subject: Re: I should know better than to start this
I agree with you on the large companies- it’s always cheaper for them to pay someone in another country (lower wages, no health insurance, 401k)
The things that scare me are his lack of experience in foreign policy and radical liberal history. I’m not confident that he’s well prepared to be Commander in Chief. Much has been made about him looking to
enact “socialist” policies and while that may be an exaggeration, let’s not ignore his comments about spreading the wealth around. Now I’m hearing about him looking to make changes to 401k rules, limiting the amount you can contribute etc. and reducing choices. In reality, a lot of what he said in the campaign may not be feasible (not enough money thanks to the $700 billion bailout/can he really just start pulling troops out of Iraq/even a Democratic Congress isn’t stupid enough to pass through legislation that would enrage the masses- they are up for re-election in 2 years).
Also, fuck this equality thing. Government programs exist to help those who need it (good) but don’t sit there and say that there’s too much inequality among the people. You and I own homes and make a living because we work for it. We worked through college, have loans and are making our way without anyone helping us. I always remember what you said when I get these calls from people at home looking for contributions to various organizations. “You don’t see me asking for money for the S_______ fund. No one is donating any money to me to help pay my mortgage”. Word.

There’s quite a lot to parcel out here but what the heck, I’m feeling randy:
George Bush didn’t have any foreign experience either and the executive experience he did have, was running a couple of companies that I believed failed under his tenure. Neither did George Bush have any military experience, but we’ve had no problem with him leading us into a war that never needed to be fought.
Hence the reason for Cheney as VP btw, which if you remember was also the head of his VP committee. Kind of nice to nominate yourself for the position you’ve been asked to approve. Funny how Haliburton, of which Cheney was inimately involved with, has reaped the greatest amount of reward feeding and supplying our troops in iraq and afghanistan. Curious how they can’t account for about 300 million our government, our taxes, gave them, and when pressed, Haliburton threatend to cut off all supplies to our troops.
All this during republican controlled executive and legislative branches of government.
So, while I agree with you that a redistribution of middle class wealth is wrong, I’m not for the continuation of this type of corporate favoritism, bullying, panhandling and manipulation either. And I think this is what obama is referring to about the redistribution of wealth. (And btw, that joe the plumber guy owes back taxes, that fucker hasn’t been paying his fair share for years.)
But I digress.
Now back to the point: mccain’s military experience can be summed up as crashing his plane 3 or 4 times and being quite the drinking maverick while in the navy until he crashed again and was captured. His behavior then, as a pow, was exemplary and commendable. But it’s not indicative of a strategic or diplomatic mind, the kind of qualities you want in a commander and chief. It’s indicative of his stubbornness and pride.
Despite this, despite the fact he returned home a hero, despite the fact that his father and I think grandfather were admirals, the highest position he was told he would attain was rear admiral. Second best, not top: why do you think that is Al? After all the shit he’d been through, and strings that his family could pull for him, why did they tell him that? Because he was not the best soldier, he did not show the qualities to his superiors that the highest position in the Navy required.
And this type of stubbornness and pride cost him the election: it was stupid to pick palin. And the details behind that decision, how he barely knew her, she’d only been governor for 18 months (and don’t give me that shit that she was mayor before that: guiliani, in being mayor of new york city, managed a greater budget and more diverse population than the entire state of alaska-just being a new yorker gives us more foreign policy experience than palin maybe seeing russia on a clear day, but guiliani didn’t get anywhere bc his was pro-choice), that he literally sprung it on her less than a week before the convention, reflect, to me at least, a certain kind of disrespect for the vp position, and a lack of thoughtfulness, if not just plain rashness to do whatever it took to win. She is an evangelical right wing nutjob chosen to rally the neo-cons, the backward social conservatives that got bush elected twice.
Biden was brought on the ticket to balance it, just like cheney was brought on for bush. Mccain didn’t balance it, he tipped it over into the garbage.
Personally, I’m not worried about terrorism and this may sound really fucked up, but if should something happen in ny again, like a nuke, we’re dead on the island anyway. But really, what’s the likelihood of that happening? I mean, do you really feel safer with minimum wage workers checking your bags at the airport or shooing you away when you’re waiting to pick up someone? I don’t bc these people are not professionals, these guys couldn’t take me down if I went on a rampage, as a matter of fact, do they even have guns? So nothing has changed to make me feel safer. Nothing at all. Instead we’re spending 10 billion on a month in a country that’s got a 79 billion surplus. In a country that has reneged on the deal that gave first bids to american oil companies to its oil fields and is instead negotiating with russia and france.
My immediate concern is the economy bc that’s an immediate threat, that’s citigroup cutting 11000 jobs in one fell swoop in one day. that’s me losing my house, my kids losing their home. and on that mccain was not talking to me at all. Just corporate tax cuts and drill more, that’s it. Sure he eventually jumped on the green wagon, but did you watch the rnc? Did you see the signs, hear the chant? Even palin, that idiot who doesn’t know her elbow from her ass, cheering them on. That did nothing for me. Even the most liberal estimates forecast that the cost of finding and refining oil would become impossible to justify in 60 years time, even with drilling in anwr (most agree on the 40 year mark, we’d still be kicking). Sure, who gives a shit right, we’d be dead and our kids middle aged. But can you imagine what gas would cost by the time we get there? Did you see what happened this summer? It’s finally calmed down but that was sure as shit a wake up call.
So, for me, obama’s commitment to green technology and alternative fuels, as well as the need for greater transparency within the market, is what sold me. more government support for alternative fuels and energy leads to more companies, more companies, more offices, more offices, more networks… See where I am going with this for me personally? Both you and I and your wife, as well as mine have quite a hike to work: there has to be some sort of competition to oil, some sort of incentive to bring fuel costs down. We need to get off oil.
And, btw, I read this research paper, not article mind you, an economic research paper with footnotes and citations and everything that pointed out that corporations have been skirting paying their fair share of taxes for years through tax shelters and outsourcing EVEN AS CORPORATE TAXES WERE BEING CONSISTENTLY CUT FOR THE LAST 50 YEARS (from 50% after WW2 to 35% in 2003).
This leads back to my initial response to you, this government is in the pocket of big business while we’re caught in its fly and being zipped up right over its fat smelly dick.

i should know better than to start this…

From: Al
To: manny
Subject: I should know better than to start this
Sent: Nov 7, 2008 12:38 AM
So are you happy that Obama won but yet sad at the same time because he is going to spread your wealth around, i.e. raise your taxes?
Thanks for tuning in to our new segment, “What makes Al so fucking angry”:
Actual quote from someone who voted for Obama:
“I voted for him because what if John McCain catch a heart attack? Then we’d have to vote again”
(After I punch a few babies and get out my aggression, I laugh at that last part)
Don’t these people know that you get a heart attack shot with the flu shot now?

Well he’s not going to raise mine, we’re actually going to get a bump bc of him.
But I sure as shit am glad that some health insurance credit isn’t going to be taxed vis-a-vis the mccain health plan.
The ones that are really going to be screwed are small business owners but that has been the case for years now.
Al, I don’t mind talking about this stuff, and I am open to criticise any politician, dem or republican. I’m a registered independent: so both of these clowns were trying to appeal to me. For national and judicial candidates, I voted dem, for state and local, I went repub. Frankly, I think we need stronger 3rd parties, but that’s not going to happen bc it would disrupt the status quo and americans like keeping everything either/or, black or white: they’re too lazy to actually be involved.
Mccain made a huge mistake pandering to the religious right and putting palin on the ticket: the woman was a moron and the choice of her is indicative of a kind of brash arrogance on the part of mccain. He wanted to snub the gop’s nose in it bc he really wanted lieberman and they wouldn’t go for it. Mccain at the start of the campaign is radically and disappointedly different than the mccain that finished. That guy wouldve given me a run for my money, but not this guy who thought so little of the vp position and so overconfident in his own health, that he chose a moron, and I really think she’s a moron (have you ever even tried to work through some of her sentences? They are utter gibberish), someone he barely knew, as his running mate.
But here’s the rub, and this has always been my stance when we’ve talked about these kind of things: in the end, it doesn’t matter, there is too much money to be made abroad for large corporations to bother with americans. There are countries who lack a strong consumer class and it is in the interest of global capitalism to develop those countries so that they afford more products and services. And I say this as someone who has seen it within my own company: american profits only rose like 5%, where overseas (latin america and asia) went up 40%. Employees in these countries are being paid 40 to 60 % less than american counterparts.
It’s hard to make the argument against outsourcing with numbers like those. Clearly more employees are need ‘out there’ than here.
This is why the whole corporate tax thing, at least for large companies like citi, exxon-mobil, is meaningless. Lowering their tax burden will not give them incentive to stay: they were already planning leaving. Would you stay with your current employer for a 10% bump in salary when you could be making 8x the money you’re making now?
It’s the middle class and small business owners that’ll get fucked, regardless of who or what party is in control.

city break

sometimes the pain inside her is so great and numb that it bloats her out from the insides, makes her face puffy and her skin shiny and taut. i believed in her. she looks out into the world from a window at street level and all she can see is the trash everyone above her has left behind through iron gates painted over black and brown and red and hard black enamel again. it reeks even in the winter, it just piles up until all she can see is the colony of rats weeding their way through and out. even they are desperate to move but cannot leave for fear of survival: what will they eat? where will they live? hounded. but as she draws thick red gloss across her bottom lip, she promises herself that she’ll get out of here, maybe california, maybe nevada, where it’s sunny all year round. she’s had enough of this, she’s had enough of the city. it only breaks you.

good obama

the first african american presidential candidate has been elected. celebrations as far as kenya, his father’s birthplace and even japan. i hold no hope, despite the historical moment: we are all entralled but miss the point. this is all show. this is all diversion. social reform will not heal the economy. a greener economy will meet great resistance. we are too entrenched, our politicians too corrupt, the system a sham. the global economy, or rather global capitalism has already found new territory to sow, reap and plunder. they have been planing to leave for decades, the impetus to stay long gone. too much potential in developing third world countries into a fresh consumer class. we’ve run out of money, it’s already gone. just speculators and strewn confetti left for us now.

good hanging

she twists and turns in her sleep, sheets tie limbs down into something that passes as rest. tears for pillows, the slumber of a man beside her who breaks her constantly. children who wake in the night vomiting into his arms and the tired limbs of a mother bent over double to change the sheets. i’ve poured everything into this or i’ve poured nothing, but i am mourning for it, of it, of him and her and what they used to be. and i dream of nooses, i dream of hanging, i dream of an unmarked grave.

quick, easy & disposable

death like anything, warmed over. i clasp bitten nails around shoulders torn, a lover’s misstep, a wife’s bounty, and jackals that lurk between trees. there is not one promise i will not break into and ransack as my own. eyelashes that peel off before sunrise and we mock the necks of bottles broken inside the necks of lonely men. so quick, easy and disposable: this is what we’ve come to, this is what passes.

quick, easy & disposable

death like anything, warmed over. i clasp bitten nails around shoulders torn, a lover’s misstep, a wife’s bounty, and jackals that lurk between trees. there is not one promise i will not break into and ransack as my own. eyelashes that peel off before sunrise and we mock the necks of bottles broken inside the necks of lonely men. so quick, easy and disposable: this is what we’ve come to, this is what passes.