i cannot stop the thought
in the conflict, there was meaning
and there was a reason, there wasn’t no reason
who was there to take your place?
some die just to live
and i know that, i know
i don’t want to stay
at home, drawing pictures
until my eyes go blind
i don’t want to come back down from this cloud
its taken me all this time
but i fell on black days
and every word is nonsense
it’s always the same
whiskers in the sink
stripped and torn mom
cannot stay long
clearly i remember
this is not for you
i did, what i had to do
one day you will ache like i ache
i got scratches all over my arms
since i fell apart
for you to speak to me
i am myself, like you, somehow
something that mommy wouldn’t wear
did you think you’d be so cold?
once upon a time, i could control myself
turn a new life over
but now it’s a little late
whatsoever i feared, has come to life
i wish i would have met you
i think you’re kind of neat
you are someone else
but i’m a creep, i’m a weirdo
i’m the pusher, i’m the whore
don’t even think about getting inside
i’m still right here
the needle tears a hole
one for each day
how much difference does it make?
try to kill it all away, but i remember everything
i wait up in the dark
this will be the day
to let a young man to die
i focus on the pain
this is how i go out tonight
take a good look
i can’t live here anymore
try to forget this.