to be engaged, present. presently spoken for. in the present for this someone. someone’s presence. to be their present. a gift to you for all that you are. i believed that once, until i wished it all away. wishing blind, such a gift to behold. her voice, like an extreme show of force. a presence in of itself, self evaporating. self defeating. now who the fuck are you talking about? who the fuck do you think you are? something like that. ha ha, yeah, you were never even there. aint that some shit?